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Wednesday, June 20, 2012

I kind of just realized something...

I haven't written anything new since January.

Really. JANUARY. It's June and I still have yet to create anything new. Not to say I haven't written anything, I edited Shadow's Dawn from January to April (and never finished it) but I have a few WIPs I have completely ignored.

Morning Darkness, my sequel, hasn't been touched since November (Stupid NaNoWriMo). Poor thing, I even left it at a good point. 20,000 words too!

The Mayor, god, I don't even thing that is 5000 words. I don't even remember what I wrote.

Toulon, which is the last thing I wrote, isn't even 3000 words.

I've been thinking on exactly why I've been blocked. It's not like I'm short on ideas. I have plenty! Though, I have been suffering from a debilitating lack of self confidence. Querying will do that to a person. Querying eats people's souls.

Okay, I'm trying really hard not to turn this into a whiny post. It's hard to write something new when you're just going to think it's going to stink. I've been at war with myself for months, struggling to get my anxiety under control, though without much success.

Now, I know people are going to tell me to relax, to let the stories come out naturally. I haven't worked on anything since April, in hopes of doing just that. No major editing, little querying, a couple contests, and that is about it. I'm trying to give my creative side a bit of a break. It's still frustrating, because I want to tell stories. I want to create something.

Then again, I had the same issues during this time of year with my first book. Maybe Springtime simply isn't my time of year to write. Go figure.

Any advice on how to deal with a months long dry spell? Other than, you know, just going and writing.

1 comment:

  1. Lol! I have the same problem this time of year, but I've been forcing myself to write - not every day, but almost.

    And on those days which I don't, I live. Yep, there's a whole life outside and aren't new experiences often the best way to get that fantasy churning?